As human beings we are all flawed and the older we get the easier it is to spot our flaws and accept them. My biggest flaw this week is impatience but the way I see it is that it shows how much I care, how much I want something, how much I need something. This week I was impatient with the NWA whose website proclaimed that all entrants would be informed of decisions by the beginning of June. Now beginning of June to me means the 2nd of June at the latest so I sent off an email asking why I hadn’t been informed yet. I am assuming that the lack of notice means I have been unsuccessful but still it would be nice to be told. Having received no reply I decided to phone – at this stage in the game what have I got to lose only to be told that emails would not be sent out until the end of the week, so here I am, at the end of the week, constantly flicking backwards and forwards to check my inbox, even though deep down I am not expecting good news but there is still the smallest flicker of the tiniest flame of hope. Come on, for god’s sake, just put me out of my misery.
Impatience with the greater world often overflows into the mundane world and I find myself on edge, niggling my children, wondering why they won’t behave and then I catch sight of the home made cards and rockets and aliens littering the desk where I write and I know my impatience with them is because I care too much. This writing isn’t just for me, it’s for them, so I can provide for them because they deserve better than this.
I am also impatient with Youwriteone this week – a website where you upload chapters of your work so readers can review it and leave amazing feedback and constructive criticism. I doubted my words this week so decided to seek out opinions and in doing so have revealed another of my flaws – I don’t like being criticism. Guess I will have to get used to that and grow a thick skin but as much as I like and appreciate this website the two biggest problems with it are that writers can’t reply to negative criticism and readers are reviewing books that they normally wouldn’t pick up in a bookshop so when somebody starts a review with, ‘this isn’t really my cup of tea’ and then just proceeds to tell you where and when you should have put a comma or a full stop it makes you wonder why you bothered in the first place. rate the idea, the bigger picture, not the small grammatical errors, if there are any that is, leave that to the editors.